Dear You , 

I know you are tired yet going on , Taking extra pressure to fulfil your fantasy ! Fantasy of being perfect.

Sometimes when you achieved its felt nice , when someone praised you at work and at home , it seems miraculous, you became so addictive to this . Feeling of doing and managing things perfectly , getting praised for that and then being happy , many hormones get triggered and you felt the bliss. 

Slowly steadily you failed to understand when your addiction of seeming happy , pretending to be living dream life , having perfect family, faking work life balance, getting praised for all the work you do at home and at office became an added PRESSURE !! 

Everyone wanted you to be around and work for them so they can chill. You being you thought that you are actually adding value , thriving and excelling , continued to be miss Perfect. Completing work on time, Doing all the house hold chores yourself, being working Parent who is so capable of handling everything so perfectly , but deep down someone is seeing all this , and is regretting deeply , taking all the bull shit for you , and that is your own body ,mind and Soul. They are so tired of justifying your madness of perfection , your fear of missing something that they are about to give up . This has started  showing in few ways - eg, your often occuring body pain , your headaches, yelling , always being on the edge , having tears in eyes while watching movie, Its nothing but the stress you are building on your mind body and soul. 

So stop it, Stop acting perfect, stop taking this so seriously , stop thinking what others will think when they will know you are not perfect , Stop calling out people when their responsibilities are not done perfectly , Stop expecting everyone else to take their responsibilities so seriously like you take yours. 

Just let it go , let it be . Let this be prevailed that you need your time, your space, and you need to do what makes you happy . Burst your bubble that your happiness lies in being perfect, because Its Not. Your happiness lies in being you . Next time when you have a situation , just try to be you , not the puppet of your Image cautious Perfect Self .Come back and tell me how it felt !!

-Garry .